Erin Schaden

Aug 30, 2021

6 min read

The Pain of the New

It was my son’s 16th birthday last week. I didn’t talk to him. I am trying to find a new path forward and I can’t see it right now. I love him, I sent a card and a few small gifts. It is hard to know what to give a person who is living in a hammock.

What I realized more than anything else yesterday is that I do not know what I am doing. I am lost. I only know how to do what I have always done and that has made us both pretty miserable. I love my child. I miss him. But our relationship is foundering and I am not sure where to go from here…